To eat or not to eat?

I am sitting on my bed trying to figure out what I am supposed to type. I decided to start this blog as a way of publicly showing my intent on getting a handle on my food issues and weight struggles. I am a big guy. I stand just under 6 feet and weigh (approx.) 280 lbs. as of a couple days ago at the Kroger medical weigh thing. True, I sing opera. True, I have a big powerful voice. But that isn't an excuse to be overweight and unhealthy. All my life I have been a big guy, but it has been these last 4 or 5 years of my life that I have really started to let myself go.

My family has always supported me and tries to tell me in the most loving ways that I am just getting fat and that I need to get a handle on things. My own mother who has given me initiative after initiative to lose weight-from money, gym memberships, diets, and everything in between has gotten to the point that she has given up and just tells me I am fat. She says "I have been nice, I have been sweet, and I have been supportive. Now I guess I will just have to get mean." Don't get me wrong, she is a WONDERFUL woman, but the fact that she is tired of making excuses for it tells me that I do really need to take a more serious look at my life. I have been on fad diets before and have lost significant weight. One time I lost almost 50lbs. on the Atkins diet. Yes, I lost weight, but I gained it all back and then MORE after I went off of it.

I am tired of my knees hurting when I climb the stairs 3 floors to my apartment. I am tired of walking into my first class of the day dripping with sweat because a 15 minute walk in the cool morning hours is almost too much. I don't sleep well, and I have a lot of stomach problems caused from over-eating and binge-eating.

It's time for a change.

No more excuses. I am fat. I am overweight. I CAN change for the better! :)

This is going to be a 100% honest account of my daily meals, activities, what the scale says and how I feel. No diets. No pills. Just healthy food, exercise, rest, and the support of all my friends, family, and teachers!

Here we go!