Day 2.
Last night I was really good...until around 11. I was watching a movie with my roommate when I just got a hankering for something to snack on that I could hardly resist. Si I compromised and got and apple and a couple of spoons full of peanut butter. Normally I would have made a big bowl of pasta...so I think I came out alright in the end.
When I got up this morning and weighed, it looked like I had gained nearly 7lbs. over night, with the scale reading 283. I highly doubt I could have gotten that off of an apple and some peanut butter, so I am hoping I read the scale wrong the first morning I started when it said 278...maybe it said 288. Who knows.
Today went well...could have been better, but it was okay.
I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast.
An apple around 12pm.
Went home and made a hotdog sandwhich (pretty great) and ate with my roommate.
My other roommate asked me to bring him a sandwhich since we had the next class together, so I made him a ham and cheese. We got to class and he had already eaten. Well, there sat a perfectly good sandwhich so I ate it :(
BUT!!! I think I compensated when I came home and had a big bowl of applesauce for dinner and that was the last time I ate...around 4:30pm. It is now 9:07pm and I have had a glass of milk and have a HUGE HUGE HUGE urge for pasta! I do not understand what my pasta kick is, but it is without a doubt a strong vice I have in my life. But I am not going to fall in to it. I do not need anything else to eat before I go to bed. Nope.
I've found that when I am sitting in my recliner and am not doing anything productive, THAT is when I want to eat. Just like now-I want pasta, but am typing on here and my craving is slowly going away. They are really bad for about 20 minutes, but if I put my mind on something else, or have a glass of milk, they will eventually subside to a more moderate controllable urge...that I am able to ignore.
Let's hope for a good rest of the night! I have some French homework to do and a French exam tomorrow so I can stay pretty busy. Tomorrow is an easy day for me, class-wise, which turn into the hardest days when it comes to over-eating.
I am going to continue to write what I what I eat for probably another week or two and then I will start counting exact calories and letting everyone know of an exercise plan. Right now I am in the middle of intense rehearsals for the opera, Romeo and Juliette and have literally no time for the gym. Hopefully that can change in the next few weeks. Goodnight!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Long day today! I must get sleep!
I weighed 278lbs this morning and I know I have eaten significantly less then yesterday so let's hope for a smaller number tomorrow!
What I ate today:
Breakfast: Bowl of cereal.
Lunch: Bowl of green peas and 3 hot dogs (no bun)
Dinner: Bowl of spaghetti
AND THAT'S IT!!! The future looks a little brighter already :)
I weighed 278lbs this morning and I know I have eaten significantly less then yesterday so let's hope for a smaller number tomorrow!
What I ate today:
Breakfast: Bowl of cereal.
Lunch: Bowl of green peas and 3 hot dogs (no bun)
Dinner: Bowl of spaghetti
AND THAT'S IT!!! The future looks a little brighter already :)
Monday, September 12, 2011
What I ate today.
8:00am Breakfast: Bowl of rice (my roommates...sorry). Two slices of sourdough bread with lots of butter and grape jelly.
10:00am The girl that sits next to me in Music Theory brought fried potato wedges. (hand-full of those)
10:40am Another girl gave me two cookies.
11:30am Package of peanut-butter and jelly crackers.
1:20pm Lunch: my house. Plate of left-overs. Broccoli. Butter-nut squash and garlic rosemary potatoes. And by left over plate I mean a full mounded plate of food.
2:15pm Peanut-butter and Honey sand-which.
3:30pm Several glasses of milk.
7:00pm Dinner: Plate of Chinese from Panda Express w/ Crab Ragoons. And extra portion of Fried Rice.
8:30pm Bowl of applesauce
8:45pm Cup of Yoplait strawberry yogurt
9:30pm Dinner 2: Turkey and cheese sand-which.
I have a night eating problem. Well, that was today and I begin my new routine tomorrow! I tell you, I never would have believed it, but when you write down everything that you eat it is pretty stunning. All that food PLUS no exercise at all, besides walking home and from class to class which isn't that much.
I have French early tomorrow! Goodnight world!
10:00am The girl that sits next to me in Music Theory brought fried potato wedges. (hand-full of those)
10:40am Another girl gave me two cookies.
11:30am Package of peanut-butter and jelly crackers.
1:20pm Lunch: my house. Plate of left-overs. Broccoli. Butter-nut squash and garlic rosemary potatoes. And by left over plate I mean a full mounded plate of food.
2:15pm Peanut-butter and Honey sand-which.
3:30pm Several glasses of milk.
7:00pm Dinner: Plate of Chinese from Panda Express w/ Crab Ragoons. And extra portion of Fried Rice.
8:30pm Bowl of applesauce
8:45pm Cup of Yoplait strawberry yogurt
9:30pm Dinner 2: Turkey and cheese sand-which.
I have a night eating problem. Well, that was today and I begin my new routine tomorrow! I tell you, I never would have believed it, but when you write down everything that you eat it is pretty stunning. All that food PLUS no exercise at all, besides walking home and from class to class which isn't that much.
I have French early tomorrow! Goodnight world!
To eat or not to eat?
I am sitting on my bed trying to figure out what I am supposed to type. I decided to start this blog as a way of publicly showing my intent on getting a handle on my food issues and weight struggles. I am a big guy. I stand just under 6 feet and weigh (approx.) 280 lbs. as of a couple days ago at the Kroger medical weigh thing. True, I sing opera. True, I have a big powerful voice. But that isn't an excuse to be overweight and unhealthy. All my life I have been a big guy, but it has been these last 4 or 5 years of my life that I have really started to let myself go.
My family has always supported me and tries to tell me in the most loving ways that I am just getting fat and that I need to get a handle on things. My own mother who has given me initiative after initiative to lose weight-from money, gym memberships, diets, and everything in between has gotten to the point that she has given up and just tells me I am fat. She says "I have been nice, I have been sweet, and I have been supportive. Now I guess I will just have to get mean." Don't get me wrong, she is a WONDERFUL woman, but the fact that she is tired of making excuses for it tells me that I do really need to take a more serious look at my life. I have been on fad diets before and have lost significant weight. One time I lost almost 50lbs. on the Atkins diet. Yes, I lost weight, but I gained it all back and then MORE after I went off of it.
I am tired of my knees hurting when I climb the stairs 3 floors to my apartment. I am tired of walking into my first class of the day dripping with sweat because a 15 minute walk in the cool morning hours is almost too much. I don't sleep well, and I have a lot of stomach problems caused from over-eating and binge-eating.
It's time for a change.
No more excuses. I am fat. I am overweight. I CAN change for the better! :)
This is going to be a 100% honest account of my daily meals, activities, what the scale says and how I feel. No diets. No pills. Just healthy food, exercise, rest, and the support of all my friends, family, and teachers!
Here we go!
My family has always supported me and tries to tell me in the most loving ways that I am just getting fat and that I need to get a handle on things. My own mother who has given me initiative after initiative to lose weight-from money, gym memberships, diets, and everything in between has gotten to the point that she has given up and just tells me I am fat. She says "I have been nice, I have been sweet, and I have been supportive. Now I guess I will just have to get mean." Don't get me wrong, she is a WONDERFUL woman, but the fact that she is tired of making excuses for it tells me that I do really need to take a more serious look at my life. I have been on fad diets before and have lost significant weight. One time I lost almost 50lbs. on the Atkins diet. Yes, I lost weight, but I gained it all back and then MORE after I went off of it.
I am tired of my knees hurting when I climb the stairs 3 floors to my apartment. I am tired of walking into my first class of the day dripping with sweat because a 15 minute walk in the cool morning hours is almost too much. I don't sleep well, and I have a lot of stomach problems caused from over-eating and binge-eating.
It's time for a change.
No more excuses. I am fat. I am overweight. I CAN change for the better! :)
This is going to be a 100% honest account of my daily meals, activities, what the scale says and how I feel. No diets. No pills. Just healthy food, exercise, rest, and the support of all my friends, family, and teachers!
Here we go!
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